Well here i am at work, board out of my mind... I work in a public library, so i read alot, and get to know authers and such.  Well after i finnish my work i usually do nothing.  We are a small library so we get about 19 people in our short 6 hour days...  Well today, i have been thinking.  I am just 18, still in high school and not too speical.  Where will i go? What will i do?  I know im wanting to go to graceland university in iowa, but my parents arent excepting of me, so they say they wont help support me.  I know im going to have to take out loans, but how long will i be working to pay them off?  Is it really worth it going to college when you have a minimal chance to get into the feild you studied?  Would it be better off just working stright out of high school?  ahhhhhhhhh so many different questions.  Well that is what im thinking about right now, and it is a sceary thought.  TO be out on you OWN, and you dont really know what will happin next?  sure its exceraliting, but you never know what tomarrow will bring.  ahhhhhhh lol now im just rambling... lol

I would really like your guys opioan.  Please respond if you read this, i would like an honest opioan.  Do you like this?  Does it get my point across?  To be honest, the money would be nice, but i am not really interested in it.   I just would like people to know how i feel, and what i would like to accomplish.  Actually I PLAN to accomplish this! lol hahaha.  anyway, Please feel free to email me anytime,  aquasoldier8@hotmail.com.  I check that all the time... lol 



 

Fear, the emotional response to tangible and realistic dangers.  Without fear we are people with hopes, dreams, and ambitions.  We are able to move, to grow, and learn without the "fear" of problems and failure.  I have several fears, from what people think of me, and how i will grow up.  Will I be a lost cause, or will I be rich?  Will I find true love, or end up dead in the street?  I fear, but with the absence of it I would accomplish many things.  I would work to save children who are like me, stuck in a world of hate, desolate, and despair.  I would try will all my might to inform the population of the troubles abandoned children have, from attachment issues, and misunderstanding.  I will work to get children off the street, because they are people too, and they deserve to live in a home with love and a family who excepts them for who they are, and what they are.  I will try to stand up to the government who opposes reform who opposes new ideas.  I am not saying that the old ways are wrong, but just well old.  With life there is always a new twist and turn.  I will stand up, and i will voice my life and my dream.  I will save, not for money, or resignation, but for the life of the ones lost, with no hope and no love.

To change the world is to stand up and voice a dream.  I AM going to change the world.  I AM going to stand up and tell people of REAL problems, and that our homes have gone downhill.  Teachings of right and wrong have been lost.  We teach people about doing what is fine for you and your loved ones, but the word love has also been lost, leaving it to do what is fine for yourself.  What about the people who have lost everything in a blink of an eye and cant stand on their own?  I WILL be their crutch, I WILL help those in need and save lives.  I will use my great talking skills to inform the population of the problems in America.  I am able to talk in front of crowds and get points across.  I also have a caring nature, I tend to put others before myself.  I always love to take the fall for people if the need it.  What doesn't kill me only makes me stronger.  I am use to  living on the edge.  I went through foster care for a lot of my life, and learned to be resourceful.  I learned to talk out and defend my dreams and hopes, I hold everyone close to me as well as protect them from danger.  




THIS IS ALL MY WORK, please dont take it unless you ask first?  lol

ALEX  Hopes Re-Birth.